Tuesday, February 28, 2006
i think im seriously mad. just awhile ago i was saying how i felt strangely happy today..awhile later,its back to the emotional rollercoaster again.sigh just read his fren's blog,and well..just wanted to tell her this..although i dun noe u..i kinda feel tt i do a little frm the way u feel now.ha well,this feeling obviously sucks..im feeling really lousy but i guess u do too..seeing how u're gd frens wif him and her..and having to watch him win her heart slowly and probably ending up together..guess im in no position to encourage ppl or comfort them,but still..i do hope u are able to straighten out ur thoughts and attain a peace of mind(:
hmm even though i dun see it happening personally[him trying to win her over],i noe it is happening and this is really a huge blow to me..sigh no matter how i cry,scream,get hysterical or run to the ends of the world for him..i know he will nvr turn back..but why izzit tt i just cant seem to follow my head and be rationa-getting over him this very instant and moving on wif my life..instead,there is a huge part of me that still hopes tt maybe..someday..things wld get back to how it used to be?hmm i noe ppl are probably laughing at my foolishness and stupidity,but still..wat can i say..just like how he is trying to walk into her heart,im trying to walk back into his life slowly..there are many obstacles along the way,but with the little amount of strength i have left,im going to try to overcome them one by one...
hmm..today was a pretty normal day..lol ponned math lecture as usual..but this time we werent so lucky!!! we got caught in the canteen by this stupid teacher la..made us write our names down and he said he gonna tell our c.t..lol but heng our c.t is nice la,somemore we told him we were studying for his test(: *just pray hard he doesnt inform our math tutor!! think he already got bad impression of me as ''tt girl who is always sian sian in klaz'' haha mm oh did pe today and it was rather fun.lol we learnt to do triple jumps(: hop.step and land! haha simple as that. hehe ok lar easy only if u do it the noob way and dun really jump very far..haha aft pe, wk,jc and i decided to do our make up pe..8 rounds around the track k! can die man..lol but i feel so happy aft finishing it..cos i feel the fats gettin burnt away..yEaH! (= hmm slacked at the sports com for an hour plus toking crap then went for dinner at bedok centre wif wk and jc..yep normal day but i feel strangely happy..smth which i dun feel tt often lately..
hmm tmr is the release of A level results..just wanna wish ya gd luck k! dun worry too much..i noe u can do it(:
Sunday, February 26, 2006
went to meet sharon at somerset at 1+ today.haha as usual, she was late..lol anyway aft tt, we went cine to walk arnd then headed over to heerens..hmm bot a nice pink tote bag for only 6+ bucks k!!! haha SUPER worth it leh...i love it(: hmm but somehow i dun think it will go too well wif the green tj uniform..oh well, i cld always buy another one anyway =) aft shopping for awhile, we went bac to cine to catch Rumour Has It. despite the lousy ratings, i tot the show was pretty gd. some parts are rather touching..oh and jennifer aniston is really really pretty!! gosh i love her super silky hair..looks nice in any angle and style..haha aft the show went to eat dinner at sakae then went home aft that..
hmm feeling a tinge of loneliness again as i sit down in the study room and stare at the com screen, waiting for the end of yet another day to pass..sigh..mm most of the time im usually home alone wif my maid and the entire hse is usually very quiet..but dunno why, i nvr used to notice nor mind this..until lately, i find this silence strangely unbearable and i just feel so empty all of a sudden..hai i really cant take this anymore.
this i am literally dying..ppl say u can go crazy just thinking..i think its true. how do u stop urself from thinking about smth which is on ur mind 24/7?
if only this was all just a dream. a horrible horrible dream. then i can wake up and laugh about how realistic it was and how silly i am..maybe if i concentrate hard enuff i can believe that. maybe if i think long enuff all this will really be simply a nightmare.
maybe...
Saturday, February 25, 2006
today was an absolutely great day!! haha went for ogl camp although im scip..haha abit extra but oh well..got other ppl went too like xt,nessa..haha hmm really enjoyed playing the wet games,hanging out wif the alpha ogls,thinking up cool new cheers and basically just having fun together (: aft playing wet games, every hse went to a corner to select their new clan masters..well hopefully these 4 ppl will help make 2nd orientation as big a success as the first one..hmm very fast leh,o2 is in like barely 2 weeks..cant wait for it(: hey j1 tjcians,must all turn up for 2nd o k? (: hehe aft ogl camp which ended quite late..a bunch of us went kfc for dinner..lol it was achalli a dinner cum gossiping session! haha we really had a great time gossiping abt all the cute guys and stuff la.. (: anyway, today was a SUPER SUPER HOT DAY and im like sun burnt now. haha my nose hurts man..my scalp hurts too =(
hmm din blog ytd cos wasnt really in the mood..crashed tpjc in the morning and went parkway wif abel lala,kim keat,baoshi,sharonpova,waikit and sy..haha{p.s those lames names were given by bao sheng..-_-) anyway went kbox[AGAIN!]with 3 peas, haha was feelin super sleepy though..
aft that at nite,went tm for dinner wif him & sat down at a playground near my house. hmm things din go too well..basically i cried loads while he sat there and watched me cry la..hai this is really hard for me u noe..its been 3 mths le..but i think i will need even more time to get over him..its like, everytime i think im over him..memories just flood my mind and i start to cry again..i noe i shld move on but well, its easy to say isnt it...i noe we cant get back together le, but i just hope that i can continue staying by his side and being a gd fren to him..
hmm a note to the gal he likes..i think ur really lucky..he's a great guy and i regret a million times for not treasuring him enuff..i wld give anything to exchange positions wif ya now..hai oh well..just like he said 'everything happens for a reason'. watever it is, it beta be a gd one..
The Day You Went Away
Well I wonder,
Could it be?
When I was dreaming 'bout you baby
You were dreaming of me
Call me crazy,
Call me blind,
To still be suffering is stupid after all of this time
Did I lose my love to someone better
And does she love you like I do, I do
You know I really really do
Well hey... so much I need to say
Been lonely since the day
The day you went away
So sad but true
For me theres only you
Been lonely since the day,
The day you went away.
I remember - date and time
September 22nd Sunday twenty-five after nine
In the doorway
With your case
No longer shouting at each other
There were tears on our faces
And we were letting go of something special
Something we'll never have again, I know
I guess I really really know
Well hey, so much i need to say
Been lonely since the day
The day you went away
So sad but true, for me there's only you
Been crying since the day
The day you went away
(The Day you went away)
The Day you went away
Did I lose my love to someone better
And does she love you like I do, I do
You know i really really do
Well hey, so much I need to say
Been lonely since the day
The day you went away
So sad but true, for me there's only you
Been crying since the day
The day you went away
Why do we never know what we've got till it's gone
How could I carry on
The day you went away
Cause I've been missing you so much I have to say
Been crying since the day
The day you went away
The day you went away
This song is dedicated to u..
Thursday, February 23, 2006
hmm today was generally a gd day..managed to get him out of my mind most of the time(: lol lessons were great too, esp. gp and pw! i love mrs noordin man..she's such a great great teacher..so sad tt when i change combi my teacher will most probably not be her..oh and i did not fall aslp AT ALL during any lesson! tts a super achievement for me considering how much i just lurve to slp..haha hmm oh ya, had math lecture test today. wasnt as bad as i tot. think i wun fail wif a BIG FAT zero la shld be able to get like 5 out of 15(:
aft sch went to parkway wif peifen,waikit and xiangting. ate yummy chao guo tiao(sinful!!) and my absolute fav drink-oreo wif pearls! haha sigh..my dieting plans are going down the drain..i realli have to be more self-disciplined man if i hope to lose all that fats..
went back to sch aft that for mass dance test..the atmosphere was kinda tense since elke and rachel both had really serious looks on their faces..true enough,they tot we were all very uncoordinated and basically LOUSY..guess we really must work harder le..jiayou scip ppl! i noe we can do it (: oh aft tt finally went for netball trng for awhile..yep & now im contemplating whether to pon sch tmr...haha (:
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
i feel so smart!! i finally have my own blog. (: haha shall blog more another day when i do not have a headache and a math test the next day..=(
