Tuesday, February 28, 2006
i think im seriously mad. just awhile ago i was saying how i felt strangely happy today..awhile later,its back to the emotional rollercoaster again.sigh just read his fren's blog,and well..just wanted to tell her this..although i dun noe u..i kinda feel tt i do a little frm the way u feel now.ha well,this feeling obviously sucks..im feeling really lousy but i guess u do too..seeing how u're gd frens wif him and her..and having to watch him win her heart slowly and probably ending up together..guess im in no position to encourage ppl or comfort them,but still..i do hope u are able to straighten out ur thoughts and attain a peace of mind(:
hmm even though i dun see it happening personally[him trying to win her over],i noe it is happening and this is really a huge blow to me..sigh no matter how i cry,scream,get hysterical or run to the ends of the world for him..i know he will nvr turn back..but why izzit tt i just cant seem to follow my head and be rationa-getting over him this very instant and moving on wif my life..instead,there is a huge part of me that still hopes tt maybe..someday..things wld get back to how it used to be?hmm i noe ppl are probably laughing at my foolishness and stupidity,but still..wat can i say..just like how he is trying to walk into her heart,im trying to walk back into his life slowly..there are many obstacles along the way,but with the little amount of strength i have left,im going to try to overcome them one by one...
