Thursday, March 23, 2006
im not sure why..these few days i begin to wonder if u've ever existed in my life..i feel confused as to whether we had ever been together before..becos right now, everything seems so far away & so unreal..
as i go about doing my things and carry on wif my life, i do still stop to think about u once in awhile..although u are no longer a part of my life just like how im not a part of urs,without fail ur name will definitely flash through my mind before i go to slp everyday..
a few weeks back i wld have felt distraught but now, i just try to push these thoughts out of my mind and regard them as nth out of the ordinary, as though thinking of u everyday is some sorta routine for me..
the break-up last yr seems to have pushed us millions of miles apart from each other..i wonder if its still possible to maintain a friendship wif u..its like,we hardly ever tok to each other now..sometimes i do have the urge to sms u to ask how u're doing but i wld be wondering if im sorta disturbing ur life cos u din asked about how im doing anyway..so i dunno if im kinda over intruding or smth..
although i suppose im healing from the breakup, i still feel kinda lost sometimes..i guess wat bothers me now is how our friendship seems to be bordering towards being non-existent..i wonder if u feel this way? or maybe u havent tot about it but watever it is, i just want u to noe tt i wld really be filled wif regret and sadness if we were to turn strangers from now on..i really really hope this wun happen..
if u still treat me as a gd fren..is it alright if u contacted me once in awhile? just to tok..doesnt really have to be anything specific..i guess ur probably busy lately trying to squeeze in time to hang out wif someone particularly dear to u..but do remember ur old frens once in awhile k..really hope u havent forgotten..
ppl say tt those who were once in a r/ship together and have broken up wld nvr be able to be friends again..i do hope wif all my heart that it wun be true for us cos i really really treasure this friendship..
i hope u read this..
